NOFAT40

I haven’t been on here in several days. At least a week. A lot can happen in a week.

For instance, your in-laws can fly in from Arizona to attend your oldest’s high school graduation. Your oldest can be a stepson, which means having to deal with his mother, who can be, well, challenging I guess is a nice way to put it. And you could be the one putting on the Open House.

All of these things are merely excuses for falling off the wagon in the last week or so. Granted, I was busy shopping and preparing and putting together the Open House, which left little time for exercise…but what is my excuse for the 8 days following the open house? And my in-laws certainly didn’t tie me down and force me to eat food that would blow my diet…that was MY choice. And so what if my stepson’s mother is a pain in the butt? Who’s in charge of what goes in my mouth? ME. That’s right. ME.

So, I have not just ‘fallen’ off the wagon…I sensed I was about to lose my footing and didn’t do much to stop it. Now nearly two weeks have gone by and i’ve walked a grand total of 3.5 miles…two just today! And points? What are those things? I do well until the late afternoon and evening. That’s when I want to snack and eat things I really shouldn’t. But, there again…WHO decides what I’m going to eat? Certainly, the greasy cheeseburger and fries that I love to eat isn’t making that decision for me…it’s MINE to own!

I am upset with myself for not getting back on track the Monday following all the graduation festivities. That would have been June 8th.  I just didn’t FEEL like it, so I didn’t. It’s such a vicious cycle…don’t exercise…don’t have energy or desire to do anything, including exercising. I did get my ‘walk’ in today and actually had a very productive day. Worked in my garden/backyard most of the afternoon and then worked in the evening. I don’t think I would have been nearly so ambitious had I not exercised.

I have a meeting to go to in the morning so I had better get some sleep. I need to get up and get the exercise done! That really helps curb my appetite. I simply must be more diligent in counting points and choosing healthier foods….not just the ones that taste the best!

I am a barista for a national chain. Our particular store is a licensed one in a grocery store. We are right next to the bakery, salad bar and deli. I see all kinds of people go by and the ones that I have really been noticing lately are the obese people on the mart carts, looking at donuts or getting fried chicken from the deli. I am not trying to be mean or judgemental or anything like that…for me it’s just that seeing them (people who are typically much older than me) makes me think of where I could be in a few years if I don’t take care of my body and make better choices. It encourages me to get back on the wagon. And STAY there!

Today was better…until later. Tomorrow is another day. Another chance to make healthier food choices and get some exercise. There’s rain in the forecast, but thanks to Leslie Sansone and her WATP videos, I have no excuse to not walk! Tuesday is going to be a better day for me. I’m going to exercise and stick to my points. I am NOT going to give in to cravings. I have climbed back on the wagon, mentally, so physically has to follow suit!

The good news is that we finally got our garden planted today, all except 3 green pepper and 3 cucumber plants….which I need to purchase on Thursday. I am really looking forward to fresh veggies this summer, particularly tomatoes, of which we have a ton of plants. I’m gonna can me a mess of spaghetti sauce and salsa this year!

 The not so good news is that the bad habit of eating when I get home from work (at 9.30 pm!), or at least snacking, is trying to sneak back in again. I know it is because I am stressed about the upcoming graduation and open house and dealing with my stepson’s mother. I just am really having a hard time getting a handle on this!

 I suppose I should quit staying up so late on the computer. But this is about the only time I have most days. At least the only time I have that is quiet and without someone asking me for something every 2 minute!

I walked 15 miles and did one day of Tae Bo last week! I need to weigh myself somewhere and see what’s going on. I think I am losing inches more than pounds, but at this point I’ll take anything I can lose…lol

Anyone have some good tips for gaining control of emotional eating??

I met a friend there last night…really thought I’d be good and not get anything fattening. Even ate supper before I left so I wouldn’t be so tempted.

Ended up getting a frozen caramel drink and a big ole chocolate chip cookie. They were so delicious! When we got kicked out at closing time, we went to Steak and Shake. Not necessarily a biggie for me as I rarely eat there and didn’t have anymore money to spend anyway. My friend got a big plate of chili cheese fries for us to split. At 10 pm. Sigh….thank God tomorrow is another day and another chance to stick to the diet!

Today started off pretty well. Didn’t eat a lot to make up for last night’s sugarpalooza. I made a recipe I saw on Racheal Ray’s show last Friday: Steakhouse Tomato Stacks. Absolutely Delish! I used low fat ingredients to make it more diet friendly and actually, the whole humongous tomato stack was only 4 points! It was very filling.

Then I go to work and have a hard time not nibbling. I am a Barista and tonight I made a lot of blended drinks and the pastries…well, they were lying in wait for me.

I’ve got to get back on track tomorrow. I know what is triggering this wacky eating, and I’m the only one that can make the decision to NOT let it rule my food choices. I can not find solace in food…at least not the completely fulfilling solace that I need. Temporary, maybe…but it’s really not worth it. I don’t want to put the Smaller Shirt away and go back to my Fat Shirts again!

Food Log

Exercise Log

I got dressed for work this afternoon and just for fun, decided to try on a shirt I wore AFTER I had my son.  I had lost 15 pounds during my pregnancy and another 10 after he was born. I had a great start at losing weight. The next thing I know, I’m like a crackhead with the sugar!  Before long, I was right back to where I was when I got pregnant, which was depressing and made me want to eat ice cream lol.

So anyway, that shirt is much smaller than the ones I was wearing recently…and it fit! I was so surprised and happy (: The last time I tried it on I had to peel it off of me almost.

I have really been struggling these last few days with eating sweets. Well, junk food, really. I realized I’ve been really focusing on my stepson’s upcoming graduation open house…and the fact that his mother will be around. (Without a bunch of details…she hasn’t been around much in the last 10 years or so and I’ve got some issues with her….). I think that is triggering some of my bad eating. So now that I know that, I have to make the choice to NOT put something in my mouth that is unhealthy for me, no matter what I feel like…

I logged my food for the day, though it has gone past midnight before I finished so I’m going to have to skip a day and make sure I log before midnight to get back on track!

 I thought I made some good food choices today, but if that pie chart is accurate, I ate mostly fat and carbs. Does anyone know what a good ratio of carbs/protein/fat is? What should I be aiming for?

My parents were over for supper  and I didn’t want to “deprive” myself so I didn’t eat much all day so I could have the majority of my points for supper. Probably not the greatest thing to do, and I don’t do this every day, just on days where there’s a buffet or celebration or some situation where it will be difficult to choose healthier foods. However, my meal was very satisfying: I was pleasantly full, not miserable, and I enjoyed everything I ate.

Tomorrow is such an occasion:  my last MOPS meeting, and we will be celebrating! My group is bringing the food so I know what I can eat out of what I bring, but there’s always a lot of sweet/fatty things there…hard to eat well! I decided to take my strawberry lime dessert instead of having it for supper tonight. I’ll pile that on my plate since it’s practically no points! I’ll make sure to get extra exercise this week, too.

 I’ll have to find a scale somewhere to weigh myself soon. I don’t like scales so I don’t have one at home…partly because of the accusatory glances it gives me and partly because I’d be obsessing over every little pound every day and I don’t want that!

I hope you all had a wonderful holiday weekend! I had a great day today!

How did you resist temptation today? I talked myself out of more chocolate! I decided it didn’t taste as good as being skinny will feel!

gggrrr…can’t figure out how to get polls to show in my post (besides this {.democracy: 2} without the .

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better get to bed i’m tired!

I have found myself nibbling way too much at things I shouldn’t be eating. Granted, it’s a far cry from the ravenous devouring I used to do just a few short weeks ago, but it does undermine my efforts to lose weight all the same. At least it is merely slowing it down, instead of reversing and packing it back on.

 Some days I have great ability to resist temptation. Some days are “just one little taste/nibble/corner/point won’t hurt…” (trouble with that is I forget all the little t/n/c/p’s throughout the day and I’m way off on my eating!). I really should write down what I eat.

This leads me to the problem of Writing Things Down on Random Pieces of Paper and Subsequently Losing Them. Organizers work somewhat, but only for a short period, then I forget where I put the organizer.  I see there is a food journal on here…I’m going to check it out. Now, where do I find the time to log in and journal what I eat? You’d think chasing after a 15-month old all day would just melt away the pounds….anyway, either way I have to be conscious of what I’m eating at all times.

I’m doing better than I was just a month ago. I have consistently worked out at least 4 days a week on average, and I’m making more healthy food choices. I must remember I didn’t gain 76 pounds overnight so I’m PROBABLY not going to lose them that way either.

One more cook out on Monday. This time, it’s at my home, where I have more control over what is being served.  Here’s the menu:

• grilled lean hamburgers, turkey hot dogs
• 98% fat free buns
• leaf lettuce, tomatoes, onions, pickles
• condiments available
  • ketchup
  • mustard
  • kraft mayo with olive oil
  • dijon mustard
• California Salad
• Strawberry Lime Gelatin Dessert (recipe posted!), fat and sugar free!

I’m getting hungry now, I should quit talking about food!

 Hopefully this is the last holiday for a couple weeks? Father’s day is coming up, then 4th of July, Labor Day…everytime I turn around there’s another reason to get together and eat! But I have to remember that just because the food is there doesn’t mean I have to eat it. And nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.

MWF are my “Walk Away the Pounds” 3 mile days. TTh are supposed to be “Tae Bo” days. So far, Tuesdays have been great days to get that done, but not Thursdays. Today was no exception. Sorry Billy, I really meant to tho!

We are very busy with plans for oldest’s High School Graduation. But, I did make healthier food choices today, less fat, more veggies and fruit.  I WILL get my walk in Friday tho! 

wondering how i put before/after pics on? i saw a spot somewhere that said that, but i just can’t find it now!

I’ve got a couple of years till I hit the big four-oh, but I have to start now,not a month before my birthday! I’m tired of feeling bad, I’m too young to be on blood pressure meds, and I want to see my kiddos grow up. So, I decided a few weeks ago that I was now ready to do something about my weight.

I was hoping that I could lose weight without exercising or watching what I eat. Guess I thought it would just melt off in my sleep or something.  I finally realized that I was eating like a kid - whatever I want, whenever I want, however much I want. Here’s a big surpreeze (lol) THAT DOES NOT WORK. AT ALL. NOT ONE LITTLE BIT. It just makes me fatter.

So I am exercising and watching what I eat. And guess what, I feel better! I’m starting to lose weight. And I’m excited about turning 40 now…